Embarassing

Posted on 12 January 2010

Okay. So I was a little embarrassed, putting up the below video. To talk about projects that “will happen” is always dangerous. Who knows what’s going to happen, really? What if they never come to pass? What a fool I’ve been, then, right?

There is something comforting about a “behind the scenes video”(another series from Numb3rs is coming soon) where there is the confidence of something already in place, but what is the point of this website, this blog, if not to wander into what it takes to make a movie, a short, a poem, a novel — to talk about the fears, the mistakes, the confusion?

I’ve lost interest, I guess, in the orderly journey that people like to present re their creative process. Maybe it happens like that for some others, not for me. Half the fun is the mess I encounter, the lack of order. What better way to help each other keep going when the whole damn enterprise looks hopeless, when our lives look hopeless, when pretty much everything around us looks hopeless?

So the below video is the beginning of my journeys on making “The Yellow Kite” and “GrassRoots,” not to mention my novel, “The Liquid Motel” (more on that later), which has been the reason I’ve been so little on the blog this past week – I’ve starting another rewrite on the damn thing. Perhaps in the next little while I’ll explore more adventures in fictional prose.

A little embrassing? Yeah. Pretentious? Who cares? But isn’t this just too much stuff to be doing at the same time? Maybe. But more to the point (so to speak) who am I to write a novel? Nonetheless I’ll try to be honest as I stumble along, chronicling all of this as best I can. Maybe it will be helpful, maybe it will allow for some mocking chuckles. Whatever.

Away we go…